and i ask, and ask. i beg the world to make everything go away if not that then i just want an answer i want to know if this is what i deserve, what i asked for the world answers, finally but it retracts its statement it always works out like that, doesn't it? when will it not? when will it finally be forever? or at least, when will i finally see clearly? i will never know, let alone now. there's too many tears in my eyes.