but i dont think im ever gonna get anything done so many ideas rushin through my mind at once should i be an artist when i cannot draw a cunt should i be a smoker i dont plan to hit the blunt should i be a mother when i wanna be a guy should i be a fighter if i am too scared to die should i be a writer i dont got the time to write should i astral project i dont believe that i can fly should i kill myself though its a selfish thing to do should i only care bou myself or should i care bou you i've got so many ideas i know i wont persue if i am here for nothing then i guess my future's doomed