I started smoking when my granny passed All the ways that I be coping never heal me fast You never notice when I'm feeling sad My room covered in some roaches Shit I'm high as fuck Only on my second blunt Grams would be ashamed of me If she had seen me roll this up I'm fuckin up I keep on spilling weed all on my lap I tried to dust it up No I'm not a fein don't call me that I just can't waste a crumb Memories Close my eyes and think and see you smiling vividly I should've spent more time with you The love you give is definitely needed Fighting demons All these battles no one sees them I just suffer quietly They eyeing me I shoot a smile just to deceive them Mmh, shit And you did the same I think that's why I admire you The strength you had was never fake I pray I get as high as you I'm jus