!! LYRICS !! I can tell it's getting bad again Because I was in the bath when I thought "What if I fell asleep and choked on the water and then called it all an accident?" And so I picked up my phone to give you a call Like I promised I would if it was getting all too much And I thought, "Why does it matter anyway?" Because I'm secluding myself from my body and the world I hate being me and I hate being a girl Scrubbing my face to try to remove all my skin but my pores fill up with foam wash and repeat again I lay my hands out flat Leave them in partial light Water them twicе a week - one morning, one night Flowers bloom into my facе Crawl their way up my throat And I pray that God will call you And let you know that He finally let me choke